Day to day, I depend heavily on Philippians 4:6-7, the verses that begin, “Do not worry about anything….” Therefore, I am a bit sheepish confessing my anxieties about coming back to Jubilee for Fall Term. I returned to Comer one week ago, stopping at the post office first thing, to end the forward of my mail and pay my box fee, making my life here official again.
I had eagerly anticipated my return, not from a negative stance, mind you. My summer away was filled to overflowing with fabulous people and places. Returning is the cream cheese icing on the carrot cake of summer.
But it’s best to face our demons–even if they’re only nagging little guys. In that spirit, here are the anxieties on my mind:
- enduring the heat and humidity with no AC in our houses
- trying to contain my habitual over-extending/committing
- feeling inadequate when I can’t keep up with all my over-extensions/commitments
- balancing personal and community time poorly
- not hosting refugee families due to political situation–global anxieties with that issue
- failing to find time for my writing endeavors, like blogging and other tasks of expanding my social media presence
- navigating challenges and changes in this community
- missing my kids and grands
God’s peace in the face of these anxieties does come to me as I make an honest effort to live out Phil. 4:6-7, to live out that faith by making my requests known to God by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving.
Thanksgiving is easy here. For the peacefulness. The beauty. The meaningful tasks of caring for the land and each other. The food in this season—grapes like you can’t buy in a store, paw paws and figs to pluck for a trail treat.
Gratitude for the abounding love and kindness. Examples:
- the bouquet of sunflowers and “Welcome home Cristy!” sign when I entered my apartment
- welcoming hugs and words galore
- the sympathy and advice to take a shower before I go to bed, which I was too stressed to think of my first sticky, sleepless night back
- sharing common space with one of the cutest, smartest, happiest one-year-olds I’ve ever known
- a quiet knock on my door and a wonderful visit on the first Saturday afternoon
- writing these words on this quiet Sunday morning to be posted today (Thursday), getting back on track and not worrying if I miss a week
Anxieties are generally falling away. As always, I am finding the Christ in me as I see the Christ in others. I understand this phenomenon as Godgoodlovejoypeacehopegrace responding to my requests. I breathe more deeply. God, that feels good!
Are you transitioning as the summer ends? How’s it going? Any anxieties?
Please forward to someone who might appreciate these thoughts. Please.